NINETY

61. I aspire to be more

Than I deserve and

More than I'll manage

62. I talk in my sleep 

The words I had to get out
But spared in daylight 

63. You think you know me

But all my moves and quirks were

Rehearsed and thought of

64. An actress so good

She could even fool herself

But the courtain dropped

65. How many fake praises will

You take before you

Find out the cold truth

66. So mean all of us

Even CONFESSION

Would not fill the holes we dug

67. We live our fears now

Ended up at the bottom 

Disguised as top floor

68. Raindrops hit the pavement like

The tears of little

People we chased out

69. I patiently wait

For every midnight

Hoping its a new fresh start

70./71. I fold you into

a tiny square at the back

Of my messy mind

Yet the known ping of 

message notifications

Unleashes the tear

72. I need to live too

Leave me here today

Protect in the tomorrow

73. The everlasting
Spring you brought shall nurse
All my broken birds to health

74. He was your Moon, not the Sun
He lit up your night
You light up THE life

75. He was your Moon, not the Sun
His dim light nothing
Against your bright burn

76. Dogs bark at night at
imaginary us
that we hide during the day.

SIXTY

31. It's a break of the routine

That makes hollow halls

Fill with light or dust

32. The worst downed on us

We turned from rainbows

To just one of the many

33. Where are our glasses

That portrayed the world

Only in colour and light?

34. I lost the magic

That made me tell who

Was the sun and who the moon

35. If we split the world

I'll give you the Sun

Just let me have the flowers

36. They are all just Moons

Dim reflections of

Someone else's burning light

37. When I look at you

Flowers swap colours

And rain reverses its way.

38. In the human factory

Workers made mistakes

And gave you too much love

39. Only the not so silent
Rain knows that I'm not
Playing by the rules

40. Even the gray girl knows how
Your eyes lit up when
You caught her smiling

41. So EXTRAORDINARY
Us together now
Like years never passed

42. I wish we would find
What made us special
And we let it fade to fit

43. We dust the invisible
Crumbs of our pants as
We leave past behind

44. Darkness be it friend
Or enemy always brings
Me solace and peace

45. How many nights will go by
Before the moonlight
Will awake the wolves

46. Finally I see
That both cards have been used and
All my hope is lost

47. His genuine smile was
Worth all the nights spent
Drying up his tears

48. I wish the night would
Swallow up the beast
That haunts me in bright daylight

49. I'm thinking of
thinking about thinking of
thinking about I'm...

50. All the planned conversations
Never go to plan
Yet I still rehearse

51. The INSPIRATION
Awaits in the dreamy clouds
But is too far to reach

52. We are the colors
Of the sky that glows
With the memory of light

53. When the pressure makes
Me cave so hard I
Don't do anything at all

54. Afraid of judgement
I leave it in me 
For oblivion to steal

55. I know you promised always
Yet I' m still afraid
You'll leave me for them

56. How did I manage
To find this place where
Only the wrong ones like me

57. Even though we've changed
I wish you wouldn't
Have outgrown the loser me

58. I tried my hardest
But succeeded in the
Wrong ways at wrong times

59. How do I tell them
That I hated the process
But loved the result

60. I stop in my tracks
To feel the pulse on my neck
And prove I'm alive

THIRTY

1. They gave us wings and we flew
But didn't tell us
How much it hurts to fall

2. Sometimes the home in my head
Feels enough for me
To live there only

3. Gravity holds us on Earth
Tried to defy it
But hit solid ground

4. If they told you then
How much it would hurt us both
Would you still do it?

5. Why, to laugh externally
Takes strength and will
You took mine with you

6. You used to think that
Toothless sharks don't bite
I hope you learned your lesson

7. Many years after
It's still there under the ash
And you're still afraid

8. Love too strong to be set free

Gets locked in cages
We, fools, lost our key

9. Do the shallow breaths you take
Mean you are drowning
In my love or pain?

10. She was one of them
The leaves that wind blew away
And will never return

11. There are no correct answers
On whether it is
Good to be the best

12. If trying too hard
Is as bad as not trying at all
Then why bother, now?

13. How long will it take
You to realise
That fall leaves fell already

14. Snowflakes don't follow your rules
They melt even when
You tell them not to

15. Tried to stop the need
Tried to stop missing
Yet all shadows have your face

16. We are blurry faced
Unimportant by passers
Will our purpose wait?

17. I don't mind their words
But I have to care
That you put them in their mouth

18. Not being enough
Doesn't truly mean
You are not giving your best

19. Sometimes your own best
Can be so good you forget
The bumps on the road

20. No amount of your ice cream
Will make me forget
That snow has melted

21. How many "maybe"-'s
Will I get before
Daisies run out of petals

22. You can never know
If red lips make you stand out
Or blend with the crowd

23. Why, trough the window
You can only see
Invites of the world beyond

24. The smell of markers
Takes me back to when we all
Cared about their thoughts

25. The little people
Still think grand of all
The little things we dismiss

26. Damsel in distress
Asked the prince for help
He took a picture and left

27. The smell of the rain
Made me come to you
Oh, the broken umbrella

28. I forgot my keys
You came for rescue
Yet, you have no key either

29. Gasoline does burn
But water does not
I die, you evaporate

30. Will we bloom from grey in spring
Like green summer leaves
Burning red each fall?